EMILY’S sweet

♥ Tuesday, August 04, 2009

lol super long since i've posted...wow this time its still all about sadness....despite the interesting life i'm having, most of it is filled up with sadness and lots of emotions combined together..anyway, things have been really hectic since we've heard the news blah blah blah....i've been trying my best to stay as calm as anything and angela says that i should just don't care..but this is seriously not something that i can't don't care about wad...its still concerning me and i'm really terrified by all this commotions...i already know that a storm and coming this way and someho i'll have to face it...but i really wish there was a place for me to hide (maybe i should be like an ostrich...just hide my head hahas...) they say its karma...somehow i feel like the karma is for me...imagine the things that might happen is already terrifying me to the max...i really wish i can just pretend nothing will happen but its really tough..thanks to all who have been really supportive and caring hahas. i always thought my happy dreams are living its life whenever i'm with yall whether is it going to the movies screaming and laughing like hell getting scolded by bus drivers for not tapping our cards (which we did) embarrassed by LMP in front of scary's aunt and uncle and she jumped out of her seat chasing ruishen or even hanging around, i cherish all this memories we've had together and hope we'll share more of this in future!! i'm gg to work hard so that i won't get kicked out of school too!! i wanna make the best out of what we have here !! :D lol wonder why i suddenly say all this...maybe its all the emotions that are allowing me to think of all these great things we've already been through...i just wanna say i really love yall and the class! and i wanna make the best out of it (: i'm sure this time it would be the same and there won't be any changes to alll these feelings..angela is right...i should stop caring and stop trying my best to protect others instead protect myself and stop doing all this ! i don't wan things to be awkward for her either...i just want everyone to be happy!! pass this jc life with joy and happiness even if tears are shed, they are tears of joy !! no matter what happens, i know i still have my friends to support me...i will choose to trust those who have given me their truth and friendship and choose to do what is the right thing! for now, the right thing is to stop blogging, start bathing and go study ! hahas...and of course to just stop caring about everything and put all emphasis on studies cos its freaking important that i do well for my promos this time round!! i'm not going to give up! and i will not give up
although i still have to say, emily will still be soft hearted no matter what...
i'll change that hehe (:

emily(: <3 09S10

ilearnt!
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